Sunday, September 15, 2013
Today I wanted to quit fasting. In fact I asked God if I had to. I really, really didn't want to keep going. It was a rough day with attack and hunger. I'm assuming some stronghold of the enemy is being encroached upon because I was attacked in my thinking in a pretty old spot. Not all days am I hungry and definitely not to the level I was today. It's lovely because it forces one to go back to God over and over again.
Faith and I stepped outside today to some glorious weather! It's March in Minnesota and it's currently 51 degrees. My initial reaction based on the temperature was that I didn't need a coat. It was so warm. When I looked around and saw a thick snow covering, my outlook changed and I suddenly felt the need for my coat. And I thought that to be very similar to our life in Christ. When we proceed with life based on what we see all around us, we can easily feel cold and in need. In fact we can get downright terrified and start to go under like Peter on the water after he asked Jesus to call him out of the boat. At one point after walking a ways he began looking around at the circumstances and started to sink. So too it is with us when we look at the world around us and take our eyes off God. Jesus said “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33 NIV
This weekend I had the great pleasure of returning to one of my favorite places to meet God - The Wilderness Fellowship Ministries in Frederic, Wisconsin. He always shows up and it had been awhile, maybe a year, since I'd spent that kind of focused time alone with Him in a prayer cabin. I arrived at 3pm on Friday and it took that day and a good portion of Saturday to finally relax into His presence. Probably every hour I'd wonder if I could go home (I missed my family) or meet up with any number of people I would love to see in that neck of the woods. I pictured myself as a child, desperately wanting to go outside and play and God being my mom or dad trying to savor every moment with me before He let me go. And I believe that to be so. He was pursuing me and He was trying to savor every moment He got to breathe me in before I left to go back into the world. Can you imagine? The Creator of the Universe wants to breathe you in too. Every chance He can. He wants to feel your heartbeat next to His and hold you close. Can you believe that cuddling you would bring Him great joy? It's beyond my comprehension, but I believe it. That is the depth of His Love for us and it is absolutely mind boggling to me.